Honeybeads Blog

I worked at the hospital today. It was a typical day of hemodialysis. It's nice to have a little job like I have. I get to work a little, and still be a stay at home mom for the most part. I am very blessed.

Yesterday, after 3 good days in a row, I had a not-so-good day. I just gave in to the urge to compulsively eat, and I binged. Then, feeling totally gross and fat, purged. Afterwards, I felt like a complete failure. But I woke up this morning, and it's a new day. Things seemed brighter and more hopeful. So, another couple of days in the life of an anorexic/bulimic.

I have been on the prozac for 3 weeks now. It's hard to tell if it is working. I don't know what to expect with it.

I heard someone say yesterday (Dr. Phil, actually), life is too short to be unhappy. That has kind of stuck in my head. God made me the way I am, and that should be good enough for me if it is good enough for him.

I have started reading a new book. It is Natalie Grant's story. She is a Christian singer, who also suffered from bulimia. She has great insight into this disease.

I have a meeting tomorrow. I am actually looking forward to it this week. Maybe that's progress............