Honeybeads Blog

Well today I did ok until about 5pm, and then I just gave in to the urge, again, two days in a row.

I go to a meeting in the morning. I always seem to feel better after these. There are a couple of recovering bulimics there. They have been in recovery for years, so that's a positive thing for me.

Some days just seem so good, while others start great, and as the day goes on, I get hungrier and hungrier, and then I just feel like I need to eat and eat and eat. Then the guilt and shame come into play, and I feel horrible and gross and totally fat.

I think Brian is having a hard time with this. He is a real trooper, but I know I am putting a strain on our marriage. I just want to be the perfect wife for him. I love him so much. He is my best friend.

More tomorrow.....